This morning I am on a emotional roller-coaster. I have mixed feelings about everything and that is just confusing. Let me explain…

I feel depressed because….

For those who follow me will know that I was not that active on WordPress for nearly 4 years maybe more and only started posting again on a regular basis about a month ago… Alot happened in my life and somehow I lost my spark got it back and lost it again… Trying to keep everyone happy and in the process neglected myself and my photography business… Now I am trying to get back into things but I took myself out of the game….

I am looking for work as a photographer, freelance or permanent but my 10 years of experience in photography does not count without the proper papers to back me up. I am a self taught photographer and spend many hours on the internet working through different photography sites and tutorials trying to better myself. I invested in online workshops that I go through on regular basis to refresh my memory. Still not good enough. At age 45 I must go and study so that I can provide a piece of paper to say that I can take photo’s….

So in January 2020 I will enroll for a photography course and this is made possible by my father who will be sponsoring me.

On the other hand I feel Happy and Blessed.

I feel happy that I can share my work with you and that when the boys were growing up I could spend time with them because I worked from home.

I am blessed with a talent and it would not be right if I keep my work to myself… I have thousands of photos on my computer and external hard drives that must still be edited and shared with the world.

I feel stressed because I need to get a income. I am busy working through my nature photo’s. I would like to sell them and earn some money with them. Then the critic in me comes out and I don’t think my work is good enough to sell… Like I said I am on a rollercoaster ride this morning….

When I went through my photos this morning to see what I wanted to post I saw these ones of some Pekin Ducks. It looks like they are smiling all the time. Happy and content with their lives.

Funny enough it made me feel better. That is why I decided to share them with you today. They lifted my spirit a bit….

Even though I am on this rollercoaster I know it will come to an end and I will look back on this morning and smile and be happy and content just like a Pekin Duck.

Thank you for taking the time to look at my work.

“If you can dream it you can do it.” Walt Disney